Mind- Body- Spirit Well-Being
MASSAAHG for the Mind, Body, and Soul.
The Care and Keeping of our Body holds the Key to...
Unlocking our Highest Potential
in the Spirit of Compassion with Truth and Love
John 3:16 / 4:24
My life's journey through MASSAAHG has seen me as a devoted sports-performing daughter, a single mom working as a licensed massage therapist, a certified health coach, and now, a loving wife-to-be and proud dog mom. Living an entrepreneurial life, all these roles have uniquely shaped my deep desire to impact the world with healing wisdom, driven by my experiences, traumas, and the need to heal my own childhood wounds.
Throughout my life, I've borne witness to various forms of trauma – emotional, physical, mental, and spiritual – both in my own experiences and in the lives of those around me. These encounters with adversity have fueled my passion for creating a process designed to guide us in shedding the layers of conditioning and programming that have defined who we've been, and instead, help us rediscover who we truly are in God's wisdom.
Imagine a young, single parent, struggling to make ends meet, juggling multiple jobs, living paycheck to paycheck, while still finding ways to invest into continuing education and learning experiences not just for her child but for herself as well; while wrestling with the diverse emotional complexities of romantic relationships.
This was me. I've walked this path, and I understand the weight this experience carries and the complex nature of our feelings and the stress of making ends meet.
Currently, I face “empty nest” syndrome. My now 15 year old daughter has decided to live with her dad to start and finish high school. With her gone, I’ve been given a new purpose. I had to learn to “let go and let God” when it came to this decision. I had my own personal feelings about the decision. However, interfering based on how I felt would be wrong.
By learning the lessons from my past experiences, I was able to navigate this exceptionally difficult emotional journey as I fought what I was conditioned to believe was correct for me AND my daughter.
Honestly, I had to learn to accept that it wasn't up to me to decide for her.
The Big “D” Word
Who here is familiar with the word; Divorce? Or is it "Diagnosis?" Have you suffered the experience of a broken relationship, betrayal, heart-ache or an “Explosive” home environment, and suffer with chronic illness?
Divorce is a profound experience that can shake us to our core, leaving us grappling with a myriad of complex emotions. It's a journey fraught with pain, and often, it feels like we're navigating through a minefield of destruction. The aftermath of divorce can leave us feeling utterly destroyed, as if our worth has been shattered into a million irreparable pieces. In the midst of this turmoil, depression can wrap its tendrils around us, suffocating our sense of self-worth and plunging us into a deep abyss of despair.
One of the cruelest aspects of divorce is the overwhelming sense of isolation it brings. Despite the support of friends and family, it's easy to feel utterly alone, as if we're adrift in a vast sea of uncertainty. Our once-solid belief systems may feel like they've been violated, leaving us questioning everything we once held dear. It's a profound loss of faith in ourselves and in the world around us.
Perhaps most insidiously, divorce can obstruct our ability to see the compassionate truth of our situation. It's all too easy to get lost in a whirlwind of bitterness and resentment, unable to see past the pain to the possibility of healing and growth. Divorce can rip us away from the unity and wholeness we once knew, leaving us feeling fragmented and incomplete.
The weight of divorce can be heavy on our hearts, contaminating our capacity to love ourselves and trust in others. It's a poison that seeps into every aspect of our lives, tarnishing even the most beautiful moments with its bitter aftertaste. The joy of hopeful and peaceful feelings seems like a distant memory, replaced by a pervasive sense of disillusionment.
With its array of complexities and emotional toll, Divorce and Complex Trauma can profoundly shape our brains structure in its neurological pathways, altering our perception of ourselves, and the world around us. As a child of divorced parents, I intimately understand the impact it can have on one's psyche and emotional well-being into adulthood. My own experience with divorce, witnessing the dissolution of my parents' marriage, has left a lasting imprint on my journey of self-discovery and healing - in Who I perceived myself as NOT being a beloved Child of the Lord Our God-Spirit-Source-Creator, in Jesus name.
In the face of such devastation, it's easy to feel as though all hope is lost. Divorce diminishes our faith, hope, and value of ourselves, leaving us questioning whether we'll ever find our way back to the life we once dreamed of. But amidst the wreckage, there is still room for healing and renewal. With time and self-compassion, we can begin to reclaim our sense of worth and rediscover the beauty of life beyond divorce.
“Intrinsic-Intuitive Interpretation” for Setting Boundaries
Intrinsic means - “Belonging Naturally,” or, “Essential.” You can even relate this to the Still Small Voice of the Intuition as an, “Inherent Knowing.” Inherent meaning that something is existing in someone or something as permanent. It's an inseparable element, quality, or attribute to him or her. Think of these as our “God Given Spiritual Gifts."
Growing up in a household where bitterness, frustration, and anger were palpable, I found myself caught in the crossfire of my parents' un-acknowledged emotions; afraid to ask for what I needed, or wanted at risk of being called, "needy," or that I, a small child, was asking for,
"TOO MUCH!"
Unbeknownst to them and myself, their and our energies compiled—my mother's as a splenic authority projector, like myself although different, and my father as an emotional authority triple-split generator, and my brother and sister in the mix— ALL resonated deeply within me in ways I didn't fully understand. As a triple split splenic projector, I unconsciously absorbed their bitterness and frustration, internalizing their discord; ultimately becoming the "black sheep" of the family. These patterns were projected into my adult relationships and the cycle continued until I finally committed to recognizing, identifying, and then breaking them. And it started with me looking into the smokey mirror.
Over the years of being told,
"Follow your intuition," and "Do What you're passionate about;" I was also told a great number of times;
"You're remembering things wrong," or "If you have nothing to
ACTUALLY contribute to the conversation, just be quiet..."
and another one of my
[insert sarcastic tone] 'personal favorites';
"
You don't know what you're talking about..."
Would you not agree that this tends to have an impact on how you see ourself? It created cycles and patterns of self doubt. How could my parents guide me to what was good for me if they were lost themselves?? The blind leading the blind will fall off the cliff...
The bitterness and frustration I continuously witnessed and received from those around me served as a mirror, reflecting back to me the areas of my own life that needed deep healing on a Metaphysical (mind-body-spirit) level. These things later manifest as chronic illness, autoimmune disease, injury, and other varieties of issues.
'Metaphysical' if you will, is derived from the Greek translation, 'Meta ta Physika;' meaning, "after the things of nature." This can refer to an idea, doctrine, or reality OUTSIDE of the human sense perception. In modern philosophical terminology, metaphysics refers to the studies of what cannot be reached through objective - Measurable - studies of material reality.
Through the lens of Human Design, I recognized the channel of judgment, logic and awakening in my chart—a channel that highlighted the aspects of my life that had been "spoiled" by negative experiences rooted with logic - a channel I saw bridging a connection to amplify the feelings of bitterness in my mother, and frustration in my father. They couldn’t receive one another, and they both cumulatively spiraled down into the, “Crazy Cycle,” until divorce was inevitable.
While I still grapple with feelings of bitterness, particularly in my relationship with my mother, I am committed to the ongoing process of healing and forgiveness as I work on honoring my own recovery out of the suffering and pain of anger, holding space for my own inner child - not just for my mother, father, sister, and brother.
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Setting safe and secure boundaries and creating a calm atmosphere for self-reflection has been instrumental in navigating my relationship with my family through my relationship with the Lord as my self.
As I continue to work through our Sacred HEARTS [MASSAAH]G Bodywork and Coaching Collective - to be a better Therapeutic MASSAAH[J] Guide and Spiritual Fitness Coach to my MASSAAH'G Members and especially, a better Wife to my husband and Mother to my own children - I find solace in the knowledge that Healing is a Sacred [JOUNRNEY] — one that requires patience, self-compassion, unconditional love, and respect of the process.
Most of all, it requires a willingness to confront the shadows of the past through the dark night of the soul. Though my father may be in heaven, and my mother and I are at odds right now; I am more dedicated to healing our relationships on a spiritual level, honoring my fathers memory and finding peace within Who God Designed Us to Be in the Image of Love and Truth, with the Spirit of Compassion at the Burning Center of Our Watery Being.
My journey of healing from the aftermath of divorce has been a testament to the resilience of the human spirit and willingness to 'do better.' Through self-awareness, introspection, and the transformative power of MASSAAHG Bodywork, and Coaching, I am reclaiming my narrative and 'Marching Fourth' towards wholeness with Mind-Body-Spirit Freedom.
Are You committed to honoring the Truth of Love and Compassion, setting healthy boundaries, and sharing your Authentic Voice with courage and grace?
I Am.
AMMN